🧴🥽 Versimilitude, not “facts.”

In fact, when “facts” get in the way of a story, I get annoyed. All narratives are fiction that simply use facts. Things like “the clock indicates it’s 3 p.m.” are facts, but what is made of that 3 p.m. is fiction. Some will call it late, others will call it early, others will say they’re “neutral” and therefore it’s neither.

What I want is the truth and not the facts. Facts are just convenient tools. Either I can pay attention to it being 11 p.m. and it being late, or I can pay attention to the fact that the sun will rise again tomorrow, therefore in the grand scheme of things, I’m never late. I can remember and recount and regurgitate every single “failure” in my life and pretend like that’s some grand grown-up worldview, or I can admit that, actually, continuing to attribute reality to undesired imaginary past events (a.k.a. “memory”) and acting as if that’s humble or good is delusional, and frankly, a bit pathetic. It’s almost better to have amnesia than to drag around the past and act like a hero, because the past doesn’t exist. Facts exist in the moment and that’s it.


I have the ending. I just gotta write it.

I’m also tentatively entertaining ideas for the next novel. Two broad directions I want to take (not necessarily both in the next novel, but in the near future):

  • Write something “non-speculative”: because “reality” is “miraculous” when you let it be. And when miracles become everyday life, speculation isn’t so speculative anymore. As in, there is no point in the distinction of speculative versus non-speculative, really; I just use them because retailers demand that books be categorized in some fashion. As if that’s how people actually read. Seriously. If labels like “horror” or “SF” or “literary” had helped me find stories I like, I wouldn’t be so cranky.
  • Solve the multiple POV “problem”: much of Wynn Ray relies on the fact that interior reality shapes the world. This is very easy with a one-POV-character book. But with multiple-POV characters? Not so easy. I mean, I could “just write.” It is very possible to write a book without reconciling worldviews. The story might even be great. But I just don’t feel like approaching it that way. I want to write dual POV, but dual POV has to make sense to me. Not just plot wise. Existence wise.

I think the next novel will be single-POV for now, but maybe with an interesting twist. For example, I’m considering the “observer” protagonist. As in, this person’s main narrative is about observing another character.

Two motifs that I’m entertaining right now:

  • The hospice environment
  • Finding a new species

I was considering a new species of dragonfly until moments ago. But I just found out that there is no dragonfly emoji on Apple. This is unacceptable.